Updates

So, Prodigy has had chapter 3 updated, and ficwad.com now has the complete versions of Longing to be with you, Visions of You and Fallen up.

I'm gonna put Prodigy chapters 1-3 up within this week, or maybe today if I'm feeling better. I'm a little under the weather, and I'm not sure if it's just a cold or allergies. Either way, I'm feeling pretty crappy and need some rest.

I've been working myself hard lately. Those who know me know it's because I'm working my ass off to save money for my move in a few months, and student loans are being called in. BLURGH! :S

I'm currently working 2 paying gigs and 1 internship. I guess it's starting to take it's toll on me but I'm sure as hell not going to let anything stand in my way of what I want. I'll rest for now then get back on my feet and be the crazy, hyper and outgoing lady I usually am. :)

I started jotting a few ideas for the RE4 fanfic... I don't think I want to do it though. It's just not a fanfic I can make to be adult, and really, that's what I'm known for.

Ok, strike that! It is something I can make adult, but it greatly spits in the face of the quality of writing if at every opportunity they drop their pants and hit the sack. ::sigh:: I don't like fanfics like that; sex is important in adult fanfics, but not enough to me... it should not trump a good plot, just be an accent to it.

The issue is that the RE4 fans are split between who they like paired up with Leon in terms of a female character. It's either Ada or Ashley. And as easy as it would be to have him go with both of them, I honestly doubt Leon's actual character would agree to that; his character and personality is too straight-ace and noble for that.

So it comes down to the woman opposite of him that sets the tone for the story. Ashley strikes me as an innocent, she will always be a follower to Leon. Whereas Ada is very much capable of striking down any alpha male. Ada is not a follower or a leader; she's the one you have to chase or eventually end up being stalked by.

It reminds me very much of the game. As Leon alone, you can go nuts, shooting at people, not giving a shit because you know you can reload. As soon as Ashley's following you, you suddenly become more cautious. And even though you know you can reload, you don't want to; reloading means not only have you failed Leon, but Ashley—the feeble one—as well.

I should probably say this now. I HATE Ashley; she's annoying and every time she goes missing I'm happy; I can't help but cheer "Escort mission over!" And then she comes back. -_-; She's like that person you invite to the party because you feel you have to but you'll desperately hope they don't come.

Oh well, maybe I'll tinker around with it longer. Chances are it will be Ada he's paired with, and Ashley shows up just so I can kill her off in the story. :)

Many Ashley fans will cry foul over that though. :P Oh well. It's about time I gained a little notoriety, even if it's for something stupid as that. XD

longing to be with you

Longing to be with you is complete!

I've finished rewritting and editing most of the ugly glaring errors in the final 6 chapters and put them up. I didn't spend as much time on them as I did the previous chapters as I want to move on with my own writing.

So, projected finish date of Prodigy moves to... January 2008.

And I guess this is where I announce the story I'm considering working on :

Resident Evil 4 - Two years after Ashley's rescue and Ada's disappearance. Leon is past his mourning the absence of Ashley; she no longer resides in the whitehouse as President Graham's term is up and has not won his re-election. Under the new government, Leon finds himself working mundane tasks until the past returns to haunt him, throwing him into yet another terrifying mission, this time to save himself. The price to pay however might be too steep as he is forced to confront his ghosts, the choices made in Raccoon City as well as the unspeakable horrors of the remote Spanish village.

I'm not sure if I like the idea of bastardizing the RE line. :S

More updates to LTBWY!

Longing to be with you's fifth & sixth rewritten chapter is up now. Woot.

Also, I'm working on putting my stories up on Ficwad. And, if anyone wants to be a beta reader for me, let me know.

A slow down!

My writing will be currently experiencing a slow down. Projected date of Prodigy being complete will be pushed back to March 2008.

I've decided to try my hand at a few other video game fanfics. Hopefully one of them will work out and my style of writing translates well. It worries me though that some of them have definite plot and aren't open enough to allow for my fudging.

Also, the feedback for Diablo 2 stories is TERRIBLE. My writing cannot improve if I don't get some feedback as to grammar errors, what the general thoughts on it are, etc. I think many writers will agree with me that even though our stories are free, we don't put them out there without our own personal reasons of doing.

But, that is the nature of the internet, isn't it? Everything for free and nothing given back.

I've written for two other places besides aff.net: Greyarchive.org and Fanfiction.net. Those two communities seemed a lot more supportive of its writers. Oh, there were freeloaders, but it felt like for every 100 freeloaders there was one reviewer and the reviews often came as soon as a new chapter was up.

::shakes her head:: It's kind of disappointing, but all that can really be done is look for other sites to post at as well.

Longing to be with you - Chapter 4

The re-written/edited version of Chapter 4 of Longing to be with you is now up!

Woot! Also, progress on "Prodigy" is going great. I had to rearrange a few things in the bare bones list I have of the plot, but it's all good! The story should be complete by December... so yay.

So there are now 7 planned chapters for Prodigy. The third one is about three-quarters complete. :) I'll post that one as soon as I'm halfway through chapter 4.

Until then, go read some other authors' works and rate/review for them while you're waiting; some feedback to them is maybe what they just need as a positive push to continue writing. :)

Chapter 3: Longing to be with you

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Late night writing

Do people really need to write "night" as "nite" ? It drives me nuts. It's a difference of one letter.

Bleh, anyways. Chapter 2 of Longing to be with you has been fixed up and rewritten. Hopefully you people like it. I think I should admit to this now as this should probably explain a lot in regards to my earlier stories... Longing to be with you and Visions of you were written while I was still a virgin.

Oooh, shocking. Actually, not shocking at all given how romanticized I am about it and how I for some reason wrote in that Nevia still had a hymen after shoving a magic wand into herself in the first version of Longing to be with you. XD

I got asked a long time ago if writing these kinds of things improved my sex life of enhanced it. And I laughed. Considering my sex life was non-existent there really was no way to improve it until I finally hooked up with my fiancee. Before that, I never really even had an interest in cybersex.

A friend tried explaining cybersex to me... I didn't get the appeal. But then years later, my fiancee (boyfriend at the time) suggested it, and it was a means to dealing with the strain of a long-distance relationship. So it helped.

But, returning to the question: does writing enhance the sex life? Well... I let my fiancee read my writings before... and I think he was relieved by some of my fetishes and likes according to what I wrote about. So, yes and no. It could've backfired! O.o;

Then again, my writing has been a way of expressing things as well as recording things in an indirect way. Some of my stories have snippets of conversation taken from myself and a friend or myself and my lover. So at this point in my life, the real life is inspiring things in the written word.

Before it was the other way around.

... ::busts up laughing:: Life's funny that way.

2nd chapter for Prodigy

Yes! If you read it, you know there's oral sex in it. Woot-woot!

I know that of three of the biggest complaints with my story is the long buildup/few appearances of sex. So, hopefully that will tide people over while I build up the sexual tension and all those fun things.

Two other complaints usually received is my crappy writing skills—which I'm fully aware of and working on—and the confusing pace or jumping around.

Also! Another announcement. I have finished re-writing and editing chapter 1 of Longing to be with you. I personally cringe at reading them and I think that's enough motivation to correct it. I didn't rewrite from scratched. A lot was reused, reworded, rewritten and corrected. So, I'll also make notes whenever I rewrite any old stories' chapters.

So back to Prodigy:

I hope it's clear enough that "Leene" is Celesta, and that she's not a sorceress, but an amazon wearing a sorceresses garb as to fit in with the xenophobic community of the Zann Esu sorceresses. Of course, anyone who skipped right to the sex probably won't realize that, but that's their own loss.

There's still a lot of personal history and reasons missing—with good reason. This particularly applies to Bayard and Celesta too given that they are the newest characters.

I think I should explain that when I say "bard" I don't mean the singing and strumming an instrument type. If any of you have seen the original "Spartacus," hopefully you'd remember their version of a bard that is simply a lyrical and spoken-word story-telling bard. That is what I envision mostly of Bayard... but that is not to say he does not get bored and hum or sing once in awhile.

Now, comes the question of "what class is Bayard?" You'll know the answer eventually, but you just need to pay attention to the clues. It's quite obvious what he is. The bigger question is why does he introduce himself as a bard first rather than what his fighting class is?

All will be revealed in due time (hee, mean!) and I really hope you guys enjoy Prodigy. After this, I do have a story plot waiting for me. It does involve someone of a druid class—not Rune, he needs to continue wallowing in self-pity and suffering a little more before he can be truly happy. And a demon will be involved... maybe even two.

:)

In the meantime, just enjoy Prodigy.

New story up

Greetings world! The new chapter of a new story is now up!

Diablo 2: Prodigy. It continues with the first line of the D2 stories I did. I'm glad those who read Fallen liked it so much. It was meant as a side story and is shorter than its predecessors.

And so, Rune, Ferrum, Alys and the ever-lovable metal golem Spikey are re-introduced. Krysta's missing, I'll figure another story for her to appear in after this one. I do have various possible plans for her, really. Just not sure which to pick.

I still remember that people _LOVE_ Spikey. I got various e-mails from visitors of the site I used to write for that mentioned Spikey and how much they enjoyed his mischief. I'm glad, I love the little metal midget.

I don't know how long Prodigy will run for. I've got about 6 definite chapters planned, but it could be more considering how much I flesh out the basic plot and such.

Anyways, other than that, things are all good considering. I've been thinking of trying my hand at another fanfic that isn't Diablo 2. For those of you who don't know, Shadow of the Colossus happens to be one of my favourite games of all time. I cried at least twice during it and had many close moments of sniffling.

I do love the story and the artistic direction. It's a beautifully done video game and I do like how vague the story is as it leaves room for much to tweak with. But that being said, I do fear bastardizing the story by writing a fan fic for it.

Hopefully I can do it some justice. As far as I know, the team behind SoTC named the man "Wander" and the woman "Mono" if you paid attention to the credits at the end. :)

Have any of you read the document dissecting the theories behind the story of SoTC on gamefaqs.com? I particularly like the one of Wander loving Mono, but it being unrequited love. However, that doesn't make for good material to read in a fan fic; it would just be him basically jerking it... or fantasizing.

Also, I don't want to guess Mono's age.

For the sake of the fanfic, she'd be 18. Anything less is just... blech.

And for the sake of fanfic, Wander's in his early 20s. :)

Meh, I'll entertain the notion for awhile. Prodigy needs to be done first. There's also a Resident Evil (game series, not movie series) fanfic I've been thinking of writing, but I'm not sure.

So, we'll see.

Progress

Well, it's been awhile since I've written and a lot of things have happened since then.

1. I'm engaged.
2. I've graduated.
3. I'm employed.
4. I like lists.

I've been a busy lady and that has resulted in my writing being pushed back. But I'm not too bothered and I hope you aren't either by it. There are plenty of better authors out there, but I am happy if you like my work.

I am still working on a Diablo 2 story and it still is a continuation of the series. While I'm glad of all the feedback I've received on Fallen, I take the "no news is good news" approach to it; if it was awful I'm sure my inbox would be ashes with the number of flames that could fill it.

I'm working on the plot of it right now. That's the stage I like the most if I haven't said that before. I like to build up the plot by point form then add the meat to the bones of the story gradually. It builds with detail bit by bit.

I think the reason I write my stories from point format to begin with is because I need the organization. I don't know if I've said this, but Longing to be with you was written chapter-by-chapter with small thought given towards future chapters.

And people wonder why it's such a train wreck... ha ha. :)

The next story is Prodigy. One of the main characters has already been introduced and a several old characters return.

So to the few people who actually sneak here, you get to see a bit of the first chapter in advance:

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Diablo 2: Prodigy
by Lady Jasmine

Disclaimer: I do not own DIablo 2, this is a fanfic purely for entertainment and parody purposes with no profit whatsoever. Diablo 2 and its characters belongs to its respective companies/owners.
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Twas upon one starry eve
the amazon prodigy was given life.
And was upon a dark day she announced
to never lay like anyone's wife.

She turned down the best prospects,
hoping for one more suited for her.
If she sees her future holding something great,
then I say 'tis her eyes that be in a blur.

How strange this act of
one of the top amazon defenders.
Perhaps she prefers her mate
to be of some distorted lackless gender?

Never shall she spread her legs
for a man who desires her so.
The softness of her breasts and womanhood,
not one man shall ever know.

She claims to keep her innocence
just to have her morals pleased.
But it could be something more indeed
like hiding an incurable disease?

Perhaps she fears not pleasing a man
and fears being tossed aside.
And that man shall take up another woman,
because even whores will allow him inside.

But if the lovely lady's virginity were sold,
she'd earn a fortune or more.
Being chaste will never earn you money, my dear,
so t'would be best you be a gloried whore.

You claim the loss of self-respect
be your greatest fear along with pride.
But, my striking one, you are wrong:
you fear letting a man inside.

What is it you hide from?
Are you scared of the pain?
There will be no hurt if you heed my words
and do the act again and again.

You claim yourself to be different,
do you belive thyself as complex?
You are not so because I know what are:
a wee lass scared of the stronger sex.
- Originally sung by Bayard, until it spread through the lands and spawned several bastardized variations.

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"Stronger sex...? Stronger sex? STRONGER sex?!!" Her voice grew louder as her offense to the song become more obvious with each repetition.

The men in the dilapidated tavern inched off their rotting bar stools and scooted away from the dark haired woman, slamming her fist on the bar and screeching her disdain in a voice that would sour the milk and the cow it came from. The furious woman wasn't fragile or fair—-thus considered ugly--but she was striking; she had a strength to her face and eyes that taunted men and dared only brave ones to look twice longingly.

In the confines of the Grand Escape tavern and inn recently erected in the now thriving desert city of Lut Gholein, a raven haired woman's hand lashed out and choked the mug's handle, threatening to obliterate it into splinters within the firm grip of her decidedly feminine hand.

One man dared to give the stink eye to the woman. Clearly he was irritated that her outburst stopped the song from repeating the final stanza faster and faster until only one drunkard remain singing. That was the game of the song and the woman simply ruined the fun.

A dark angry aura seemed to rise off of the woman as all but her neck remained perfectly still. Her head was turning slowly in a twitchy manner, her nerves torn raw from the drunken ditty. She haughtily stared down the man who dared to give her any attitude be it through one's voice or actions.

She had her own actions to accompany her displeasure which she would happily follow through with.

Minutes later, she left the bar. She couldn't help but smirk to herself as she walked down the dusty streets. Even when she was in the area of the legendary blacksmith's workplace she could still see the arms of a man frantically waving and screaming at the top of his lungs.

His form, though a dark silhouette against the red skyline of the desert city of the west, was impressive. It was a feat that he could even get air into his lungs given how much effort it had taken the woman to shove the rude bar patron up the fireplace chimney.

The rules of the amazon life was simple:
1. Honour and pride among you and your sisters
2. Courage in light and darkness.
3. Never disrespect the prodigal amazon.

As she tossed back her dark hair, Celesta still felt her fury boiling. Furious? Yes! Of course she was furious. She, the mighty Celesta of the Amazons, daughter of the revered Kaelith and student to the legendary Illeila was being laughed at. Imagine the nerve! All she could do was clenched her fists tightly; she was not used to this brand of rage and was unsure of what to do it.

She halted in her tracks, the dust rising up from her worn boots that were covered in a fine layer of dirt. According to Amazonian laws, offended sisters were given the right to exact their revenge or displeasure upon those who offend. Granted, the original author was no responsible for the song was not under or a follower of the Amazon ways... however, that fact alone would not spare him of Celesta's right to follow through with tradition and justice.

Celesta had heard the song many times. With each retelling she had heard though it became more and more offensive to her. The point of the song remained and it was beyond insulting! To suggest that females were the weaker sex and that Celesta had failed to find a mate as tradition dictated was unacceptable.

There was more to her tale, but she was beyond unwilling to find the stupid bard and explain herself. It however was not beyond her to find the bard for other reasons.

She knew she needed to find the bard, but she was unsure of how anyone was supposed to track someone down based on just one clue: his name, Bayard.

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Celebratory BLARGH!

New chapter of Fallen is now up, all that remains is one chapter... unless I decide I want to extend the story more... which I can if I feel like being kind to Valerius, but, we'll see.

Do I want Diemma to die? Yes and no.

For yes, the reasons would be to be a bitter-sweet ending and I've never written a story yet where it ends in failure. It would be different, it might be better, we'll see.

For no, I don't like sad or bitter-sweet endings sometimes. Life is like that a lot so is it really neccessary that fiction be that way as well?

Also, I had my final thesis critique last night. It's safe to say that I'll be getting my degree in two months. :) So long as I don't fail my final exam in cultural anthrpology. v_v; I haven't really been studying it at all. A-hahahaa....boo-urns.

Well, wish me luck. Hopefully I'll have the final chapter (or more than that depending on what ending I choose) up by the first week of May.

Also, it's really depressing when you look at how lazy people are when it comes to reviewing, let alone rating.

Fallen technically only has 1 rating because I passed the URL to a girlfriend who rated it after reading as her way of rooting for me. But, she hated apprenticeship, so she gave it only 3.

So.... Fallen has 1 rating, Apprenticeship has 0 ratings, yet Fallen has 100+ readings. Compare that to my very first story published in 2005, it has 9 ratings, 6 reviews, and almost 6000 hits. I try to make it a point to rate every store I read, and review the ones that have some need of constructive criticisms or obvious praise beyond "Yeah! Good story!"


But, everyone has their own rating/review reasons. Not rating is what I consider to be a contribution to laziness since all it takes is pulling a menu bar down, selecting your rating and hitting the button to submit it. Not that difficult, but then again, not littering isn't difficult at all, and last I checked the streets outside are still rampant with discarded cups, chewing gum and chocolate bar wrappers.

Sad really, but hey, support the authors you read ( and I'm not just talking about me ) because they too could feel one day that no one really gives a damn about the stories they write and just give up. I know I've gone into a 3 month.... even a 3 year hiatus because of it.

Also support the writers you think that are lacking the technical skill or development, etc. With just the right push and useful criticism, they could get better.

Why am I still up?

Bleh, two hours ago I was about to sleep and now I've caught my second wind and am fully awake. I hate that. I'm almost finished writing chapter 6, but I've decided to put it on hold to finish some other things RL that need my attention. (Some deadlines are coming and that makes me kind of nervous since I'm not entirely ready.)

My boyfriend will be in town next week. We haven't seen each other in two months, and I'm just happy as a clam to have him around again. This mean I get laid again... ahahahaaa! By the power of grey skull!!!—In his pants.

::cough:: You read nothing! (In his pants.)

I need to promote a MUD now. Achaea.... the longest MUD I've stayed with, about 4-5 years now. It's great, give a it a shot, you may like it. They're pretty good since they make a business out of it (it's free to join though, it only costs credits if you want some super expensive stuffs) so they do have regular maintenance, upgrades and new developments. I could probaly do a better job promoting it, but I'm a little out of the loop. I'm one of the "old people" now -_-. So... I pop in once in awhile, my house screams in shock that I'm still alive, I check on my children then I leave. Pretty straight forward. I used to be involved in the political intrigues going on, but after so much scheming to aid in the dethroning of terrible rulers, I hung up my scheming hat and settled in to a peaceful MUD life.


Ugh... where's my DS? It's time for some Puzzlequest! Ke ke ke ke!

Aaaaarrrghhh!!!! (Frustration)

My author's notes for Chapter 5: Fallen is the next post down, so skip this if that's what you're looking for!


I think I'm going to blow a head gasket. Diablo 2 absolutely hates my mac, so I'm stuck to playing it on my pc. Which is too bad... I love my mac laptop. I got an Intel MacBook Pro, 17". It's beautiful, I wants to snuggles it!

But... I really wanted to play Diablo2, but I hate feeling cramped behind a desk at my PC. ::sighs:: But... I really want to play, so... wouldn't hurt, would it?

Bleh, might as well install D2 and LOD on the PC now. ::sniffles::

Fallen: Chapter 5 notes (contains spoilers)

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I really do wonder how many people saw that the person controlling Diemma was Lanai. I could've made it one of the paladins in Valerius' company, but that seemed so off to work in. They've known him for how long and only now decide to show true evil? Lanai seemed the perfect candidate given how it makes sense. She's not the only survivor because she fled, she's the only survivor because she orchestrated the whole thing using Diemma as key to it.

Diemma was the one she used to do her bidding and put Avellai in a dangerous situation. Whenever Diemma was with Avellai, allowing her to use her, Lanai could eavesdrop and use Diemma to push Avellai closer to her death.

It's kinda sad. I'm still unsure as to write Diemma's dealing with her being somewhat responsible for Avellai's death. Diemma had said she respected Avellai, which was true, but also understated. She very much saw Avellai as a friend and, though Avellai used her, Diemma was happy with it. She wanted to help people, but given her state of mind, she couldn't trust herself to do only that to people, so that's where Avellai came in hand; Diemma no longer had to be around people to help them.

In terms of my writing, sometimes I think that I'm not putting enough variety in my words or technique (if that's what you can call it.) I sometimes flip through a few books in my collection while I'm writing, picking up on authors' different ways of delivery and try to adapt to that for a paragraph or so.

Ah well, I'm starting to wrap up the story. The true enemy is known! Dun dun dun!

The first you've ever read

Do you remember the first lemon or erotic fanfic or whatnot you ever read? I do. I think it's that story is what inspired me to start picking up even romance novels which eventually lead to my writings. The first lemon I ever read was on Sakura Lemon Archive... which is sorely missed. It was written by Vegeta and was called "Beauty is as Fleeting as a Rose."

That fic starred Haohmaru, Charlotte and Genjuro, but the relationship was all between Charlotte and Genjuro. I thought it was well written, and even now I still think it's a beautiful read. I remember reading it and thinking to myself if any man ever loved me or touched me the way that the author had written Genjuro to do so, I'd belong to him always.

I'm straying from my point. That is the story that set everything about my writing in motion to now. I don't think there's any other fanfic that I've read to date that can compare so far. But that's just me. If you ever do find it though, be sure to read it. Sakura Lemon Archive is no longer up and I couldn't find it on adultfanfiction.net , so , I don't have anywhere to find it except for saved on my harddrive.

I'm pro at procrastinating

I don't really feel like writing at the moment. (What do I call this blog though?)
A-hahaha... IRL, I'm preparing for an art show, so things are a bit hectic for me. I'm running around, getting things framed, getting photos reprinted and a whole slew of work. It's tiring.

I had a story idea hit me this morning when I woke up. But let's see how much determination I have when it comes to writing it down. I promised myself I'd finish Fallen before moving to my other stories... and there's A LOT of them.

One of the ideas was about a man, who has entered so many relationships, but happily lets the woman go each time when they find someone else to love. He likes to pride himself that he is sort of a "trainer" for women, to guide them as to prep them for what's out there in the world, what men want, how they can control them, etc. But that's just it. he never enters any relationship expecting to keep the person.

Now, with that in mind, how do I fit that into the DIablo 2 world? The obvious one being an apprentice. I did an apprentice story a long time ago. I hated it. It was badly done, it was silly, it was a one-shot deal.

Still... Yuck. It was written early while I was still learning, so it's pretty bad.

Moving on... do I want this person to be happy in the end? Should he find someone? Should he take a woman to train that he realizes he doesn't want to change, but she ends up changing and leaving him? I read once before that men enter marriage hoping their woman won't change while women enter a marriage hoping that the man will. So in this relationship, should she change, or does he have such difficulties moulding her into the women that has left him before that it affects him?

I'm used to writing happy stories, even though I know the real world isn't like that. Maybe that's why it's fiction...

Anyways, I'll mull over this some more while I'm writing Fallen. I think there's about 4 or so chapters to go. I'm only starting to work on finding the clues behind the mystery and problems.

:)

Holy hell, I'm still awake!

Uhh....ah-hahahaha... not good. This past week I've been up every night until 4 or 5 am and waking up at noon sometimes. Not good at all!

So, I'm now hammering out the end of chapter 4, making notes as what to add as details to the next chapters and trying to ignore this horrible pain from my stomach. It must be close to that time or god is angry at me for writing icky icky smut! :D

I don't really have much to talk about at the moment... ohh, yes I do!

I have a Wii! I've had for about a month now, and I lurve it! ::snuggle snuggle:: No kidding! I only have two games for it so far (poo!) Wii sports and Rayman Raving Rabbids, but I love it. I love being able to move around like a jackass. I've actually hurt my arm playing tennis. :D It's wonderful. I just hope next time I play my niece ducks before I catch her in the eye again with the wiimote. (kidding, I accidentally hit a table and hurt my wrist.)

Speaking of video games... I suppose I should talk about why I've written only fanfics about Diablo 2 so far. The simple answer is: other games are too sacred to me.

Diablo 2 is very open to changes and interaction with set characters that are not neccessarily the main characters. I have no issues with the people who do like to write fanfics of Cloud or Sephiroth or even Yuri, but I am not comfortable with doing it at the moment. Most games to me are wonderful. I often love the plot as it is and don't want to add to it or change a thing, or at least write the changes.

One of the games I am absolutely in love (and scared) with is Resident Evil 4. Leon's hot, what can I say? I liked him even in RE2 when he was still the brave but sometimes clueless cop. Ada and Leon's relationship has always been obvious, and I like that. There's room to play with her mysterious air about her and Leon's very grounded nature, but I don't want to let my imagination get in there.

Is it strange to say I respect a character enough, or the story, that I don't want to touch it?

Another game I won't ever touch is anything in the Zelda series. Just... no. I can't do it. I love Link, but I don't see him as sexual or anything like that. It's just... he's fine, I can stare at him, but as far as I'm concerned, he has no penis to sex anyone with.

It's just... no!

That's my weirdness. Oh well.

... I sound like Diemma. All I need to add in is, "Don't use me!!! Look, a hamster!!"

v_v;

I should probably say more stuff about me...uhmm...

Age: mid 20s

Sex: I likes it like most women do.

General turn-ons: TWG (tall white guys), a bit of meat on the guys (do not like sticks), good manners, a sense of humour, intelligent geeks, open-mindedness and playfulness.

Fears: Spiders, bees, wasps and sharks. Sharks are bastards!

Music: Malice Mizer, video game OSTs, Vanessa Mae, classical music, and other music that has little to no words.

Video game (series): Castlevania, Legend of Zelda, Metal Gear, Resident Evil, Diablo II, Final Fantasy, Chrono Trigger, Samurai Warriors, Katamari Damacy, The Sims

Online games: Achaea, City of Heroes, Second Life (not really a game, but meh)

Animes: Hana Yori Dango, Fushigi Yuugi, Hellsing

Authors: Jacqueline Carey, George R.R. Martin, Claire Delacroix, Christine Feehan, J.K. Rowling

TV shows: Law & Order, Raines, Heroes, The Office, 30 Rock, The Mercer Report

And that's enough for now, gotta post chapter 4!

Musings

There's only been a total of 3 people in my life who know I write: my boyfriend, my best friend and one of my sushi-buddies from my first college year. Each and everyone of them found it amusing. To my boyfriend, it was like having a girlfriend work at a lingerie shop (which I used to btw), so no real complaints from him about my writing. My best friend thought it was funny yet weird, but it was an outlet, so she respected me regardless. And as for my sushi-buddy... he laughed, since he knew that the first few stories I wrote was when I was still a virgin with no real sexual encounters of any kind.

I think what it is about writing is that I have these scenarios in my head, all capable of being fixed together into some kind of story, and they won't leave me alone until I can get it done. It's very much the same with me as art. I have to sit down and finish it soon.

I won't always do romance stuff, but the ones that are is where the most effort goes. I have a feminine touch to stories which won't ever change nor will I want it to since I don't believe myself as capable to do orgies or BDSM, SM, blood or other kind of fetishes. At least not write about it. Everyone has a line they draw as to what I will write about, and that's where I draw mine.

In real life, I am the kinkier one in my relationship. I introduced my boyfriend/lover to bondage, collars, occassional spanking and power games of the like. But, its done mostly to me. I've called him everything to Master, darling, my King. However, though I am submissive to him, he only dominates me because I let him. As Ive said to him before, "I am your Queen, dammit."

I like BDSM but I don't think I could write about it simply because I know not how to form it into words. Plus, it's just a side of me only he will see, so letting other people see how I would really write BDM is giving people an intimate look at what I enjoy or would like... and how I don't see it as a power trip or power game despite how we may play that in bed.

And so now we move on to one of my stories, Fallen.

I like this story so far, honestly. Diemma is hard to write for because her mind has to be all over the place. I get caught up in writing her emotionally one way, then realize I have to switch her in another direction. I do feel bad that her mind's quite off, but the reasoning behind that will be soon I hope.

I honestly hope my writing has gotten better. My weakest point so far has been grammar. I'm quite crap when it comes to staying consistently past tense or not. :S I guess I get a little too creative and forget about the grammar... which is probably why I turned away from going after a computer science degree. Kyahahaha... you should've seen what kinds of code I turned up in just high school. My professor would shake his head, tell me he understood what I'm trying to do, but the computer doesn't, which is the root of the problem.

Oh well. I do hope you guys enjoy Fallen. I like Valerius even if it seems I don't. He's just a good guy torn between rules he thought were black and white. So when he meets Diemma, a pure gray, he has no idea what the hell to do.

Speaking of grey/gray... I still don't know which version I should be saying. I remember my boyfriend said one of his friends were named gray/grey. I asked "Which one?" He said, "I don't know..." When he asked, his friend said, "Grey/gray, as in the colour."

With my twisted logic, I reasoned that it MUST be Grey because G-R-A-Y is G-A-R-Y spelled wrong.

...yes, and I said it with a lot of conviction. He's still shaking his head about that one.

It's been 4 years

I'm almost hesitant to start this blog, but I need a place to clear my head. So take this at face value really, and try not to think too much about it. This could very well be the rantings of a mad woman.

Lady Jasmine is my pen name, but also very much my actual name. I am very much in love with the scent and appearance of jasmines. It is the "King of Flowers" yet the idea of a flower being given a masculine title is probably also what gives its relation to me. I'm a bit of a tomboy.... and that itself is probably a bit of an understatement.

The last time I wrote any story at an adult-level was maybe four years ago. I stopped writing after everything I longed for was found in my boyfriend—whom I'm still happily with. I think it's important to mention that majority of what I wrote was in some way inspired by him. I've never written any slash or gore fics because I could never picture myself doing that to him or him to me. And that's really what it boils down to. If I can't see it, I can't write it.

I used to write for the Greyarchive and adultfanfiction.net then just fanfiction.net. I didn't really like the layout of adultfanfiction.net, plus it's hard to get constructive criticism from that place since reviews are published. Greyarchive was ok for reviews in terms of the numbers of e-mail I got after each chapter publish. My only beef was not knowing how many people read, which is probably why I'm a fan of adultfanfiction.net

Fanfiction.net used to have adult stories, then they changed their policy, so I changed to rewriting all my work as PG-13 romances. Which I quite liked. But now, after three years since I've been there, I've come back to aff.net. I have no problems with their forums or site admins yet; I pretty much keep to myself as I probably should have with other sites.

Well.... we'll see how this goes.